I know I am late to this one – really late, but this year, instead of seeing everyone’s “goals” or “resolutions”, people decided to pick a word that personified them for 2012.  I thought long and hard about that.  What would my word be in 2012?

Sounds conceited right?  I don’t mean it to be.  2011 was a rough year for me and my family and I decided that 2012 is going be the year I improve myself.  There are things I want to do.  I won’t list them all here as some of them are very personal, but two things are to write a novel and become a runner.  I am a little bit behind on all of this, but better late than never, right?

Did you pick a word for 2012?  What is your word?

 

It’s Saturday afternoon as I type this.  The girls are snuggled on the couch with iPads and blankets, Brian is gone geocaching, and I am writing and watching football.  I look around and think of all the millions of things I should be doing instead of sitting here on my computer.  I see the dust on the entertainment center.  The meals for next week need to be planned.  Laundry should be done.

I think about the writing career I am trying to get off of the ground.  There are query letters that should be written and sent out.  I need to research some markets for my ideas.  I also want to start outlining my novel.  I am determined to make 2012 the year I do this.

There is always so much to do and not enough hours in the day.  If I think about it too much, I feel overwhelmed and think maybe I should forget about some of my dreams.

I wonder if I am a good mother?  A good wife?  A good writer?  Am I enough?

Then I hear my kids playing with their dolls together nicely.  I kiss them good night and they say, “I love you Mama.”

My husband and I share a private joke and laugh together.  He texts me when he has a break at work.  He gets back from a work trip and says he missed me a lot.

I see my latest article published online.  I have found some great writer friends.  I have also found some writers that are giving me great feedback to help with my writing.

All of these little things show me that I am doing something right and that I am enough.

 

 

Everything I do is for those two girls.

They are my number 1 priority.  When things get hard, I think of them and that gets me through.  All I want is their happiness and safety.

I think I lost sight of that a bit the past few years.  But now my vision is clear again.  They are the most important thing in my life.

 

And then there is this guy – my wonderful husband.  He’s stuck by me through thick and thin.  I am so blessed to have him in my life.  I never want to take him for granted again.

In all that I do, I think of my family.  They are my number one priority.

 

This past year I almost lost my family.

We have put it back together.

And that is the best present ever.

 

Lately I am striving to be better….

A better friend.  I tend to push people away as they get close and shut down from them.  I want to cultivate friendships again and be someone that others can always count on.

A better daughter.  I want to show my mom and stepdad how much I appreciate all they have done for me.  I want to take the time to pick up the phone and call my dad or send him an email while he is in Florida for the winter.

A better mother. I am working on my patience with my girls. They are growing up so fast and before I know it be young women.  I am trying to put down the phone, close the computer, and listen.

A better wife.  The past couple of years have been rough for my husband and I.  While things are much better, it’s not with hard work and we must never let things get like they once were.

A better Christian.  I want to live my faith and become closer to God every day.